Saturday, August 8, 2009

O Mary

I suffered from infertility for years before my daughter was born. A couple years before she was born, I got pregnant. My husband and I were so happy. Until the day we found out it was an ectopic pregnancy [in one of the fallopian tubes]. I was utterly devastated . I cried so hard I couldn't catch my breath. I placed myself and this baby in the hands of Our Lady. She took my hand and held it during the three months I carried this baby in my tube. The doctor wanted to operate but I wouldn't let him. He was angry and thought I was placing myself at risk of the tube rupturing. Here was the thing; I believe God gives a baby a soul at the instant of conception. As long as the hCG [ a hormone that is made by the embryo soon after conception] levels were rising I felt the soul was still in the body so I didn't dare do anything. Mother Mary lead me to a beautiful Catholic woman from Birthright named Evelyn. This woman was wonderful and found me a committed Catholic doctor who helped guide me in this. Every night I prayed the rosary and received so much consolation through her intercession. The Lord called me to offer the suffering up in reparation for the sins against life in our world. The hCG numbers finally plunged but I still waited. I asked Mother Mary for a sign of when it would be okay for the doctor to operate. A few weeks later I had a dream that I was pushing a baby carriage and I came upon a tiny gravestone. In this dream I was shouting " O Mary, conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to thee" and complete peace surrounded my soul. I knew my baby's soul had gone to be with the Lord. When the doctor finally went in there no sign of the ectopic pregnancy was found, just endometriosis which probably caused this to happen [blocked tubes]. Six months later I conceived my daughter .

Mother Mary,
Thank you for loving us as your own and your intercession for this world.

I will never forget you. I have you tucked into my heart. Thank you for your kindness and caring. You were a ray of sunshine for me during this dark hour. May God bless you!


  1. Thank you for sharing this beautiful story.
    I also have met a couple of people like Evelyn in my life and cannot stop thanking Our Lord for having put these angels on our road ...

  2. I wish I could find her and tell her how much she helped me. Maybe someday I will get to; if not here... then in heaven. I printed it in hope that she might see my blog.

  3. I have always wondered what I would do if I found myself in your position. What an inspiring story.

  4. Thank you, Kathleen. God poured his grace on me to help me through this:)